Tuesday, September 24, 2002
I have commented in the past how I felt that I had somehow lost the essence of who I was over the past 10 years. I have felt more lost than ever the 5 years before Parker was born. Today, I was sitting here thinking and I realized something rather significant .... I am finally finding myself again! In high school, I felt strongly about a few things: music, the environment, animals, and crafts.
I've starting singing more to Parker, and I'm looking forward to pulling down my keyboard and introducing him (albeit slowly) to the piano. I wish there were a local choir I could join, but the only ones here in Newberry are associated with churches.
I have whole-heartedly thrown myself in to things to support the environment in some small way in my opinion. I am breastfeeding Parker, thus decreasing the waste materials associated with artificial baby milk (bka formula). I cloth diaper Parker (although even I don't do it 100% ... not enough Mother-Ease) to decrease diaper costs and solid waste (yes, it uses up water to wash them, but I do have a front loading washer). We are planning a vegetable garden and to start composting, and we've been really good about reusing containers or at least recycling them.
Animals. Well, plainly put, I know that I can no longer be involved in animal research. Don't get me wrong, they are treated well and I fully believe that animal research has many, many benefits for mankind and has saved and extended our lives tremendously. But I, personally, cannot be involved in the actual experiments. It has been a tough road of realization, but I know I can't do something I'll regret later in life, and I know I would.
I've also returned to crafty things, which is really fun, and it boosts the ego to finish a project!! I have many plans, but I've had a hard time finishing any. I am hoping to finally get my curtains done this weekend with my mom's help.
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