Wednesday, January 19, 2005
The end is in sight
I think the baby has dropped, but I'm not at all positive. I'm having a lot more pelvic pressure (including 3 bouts yesterday where my entire pelvic floor/perineum felt pressure like a bowel movement -- NEVER had that before!!), baby seems to look lower, and it is much, much harder to get up from a seated position. It is so exciting to even think that it could be, as Parker NEVER engaged or dropped or anything. Sprout also started to turn yesterday evening to LOT (where his/her back was on the left side of my tummy), but then rolled back to OP (where his/her back is laying against my back).
It is so weird to realize that tomorrow I am 39 weeks. That this journey's end is truly in sight. At the beginning, I really was not happy about being pregnant, knowing what I was in for medically speaking and knowing how awesome a responsibility it is to have another child. It has taken a long, long, LONG time for me to "lighten up" and just ENJOY this little life inside me, without thinking about all the peripheral stuff. I'm still not 100% in the moment, and I no longer expect myself to get there.
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