Thursday, January 27, 2005
It's Time...I'm Waiting
I know that today is my due date, but I woke up with nothing! Yesterday AND the day before, I woke up with contractions. I have had ONE in the past hour, and nothing else. I was having them so regularly yesterday, and the walk in the woods, and everything, so to have none today is really, really frustrating!!
I know I shouldn't have been expecting to go early or at least by my due date, but I was -- and I'm disappointed. This morning, when I checked my email (I use Outlook), the little "reminder" popped up saying "Overdue: EDD for Sprout". It made me just want to cry!! So, I'm trying to get up the energy/motivation to clean this house from top to bottom in the "nesting spirit" that I don't have, and not just mope about that I'm not in labor or with baby in arms. I want Sprout here NOW! I want to know if this is baby Kira or baby Aidan!! I NEED TO KNOW!!
I think I'm also worried, because the OB won't induce -- he'll go straight to the cut, though I guess I could insist (I'd rather be induced than have another c-section)? Knowing that I have this "deadline" which I haven't been thinking about before is a little stressing, and I know that doesn't help ... I don't know why today is starting out so difficult.
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