Thursday, February 16, 2006
I'm just tired.
I'm tired of having to fight Kira for sleep
I'm tired of hearing her scream
I'm tired of having my temper flare at Parker because I'm so frustrated at Kira
I'm tired of not getting a break during naptime day after day after day after FRAKING day
I'm tired of being the "one mom" with a FRELLING ONE YEAR OLD who DOES NOT NAP
I'm tired of having this shitty task of trying to coax her to sleep day after day after day
I'm tired of having to be on eggshells while she does take a 15 minute nap
I'm tired of having crappy-ass sleep at night, because she doesn't sleep well
I'm tired of listening to her scream non-stop when I TRY to get her to go to sleep on her own
I'm tired of hearing how "easy" it is to just let them "Cry it out" -- oh yeah??? COME AND BE MY FREAKING GUEST!!!!!!!!!
I'm tired of wanting to run away every night the second Jeff walks in the door -- as she is a wreck
I'm tired of the hour it takes to get her to sleep at night, EVEN THOUGH she doesn't nap
I'm tired of it all
I'm tired of not having options -- because of money and because of availability/quality in our general area
I'm tired of feeling like I can't share this here, without judgement
I'm just tired -- she is STILL screaming, though Parker has thankfully hidden in his room for this torture session
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