Thursday, March 23, 2006
AND SHE SLEEPS!!!!!
And icing on the cake, Parker is in his room, and I think he might just fall asleep.
Unfortunately, I now have a mound of business work to do, so much for relaxing.
I know that a lot of the problem is that I want to be one kind of mom, but find myself doing things that don't fit in with my personal philosophy solely out of frustration (like CIO, yelling, and the like). And I don't know how to mentally deal with that dichotomy. So, I feel like I am making my kids suffer, and I am suffering inside because this not-so-caring mom has decided to just walk away. And I know that it is MY issues, and that if I had laid-back, easy-going kids, this wouldn't be my post! Seems I have some soul-searching to do, and that I need to figure out a lot more than just nap time.
I know, intellectually, that parenting is an expression of personal philosphy, and now I need to see if I can live it, or if the philosophy itself needs to change.
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